Jackie: A Tale of Perversity and Woe

I am in such a weird mood today. I can't even really explain it. It's like I'm floating in between things and I'm not sure which direction I'm going to go. I can't say I'm sad or depressed, but I can't really say I'm happy, either. I don't really know what it is. It's strange.

You ever have that feeling where you don't know what it is you should be doing? Yeah, that's how I feel right now. Not in a big, metaphorical sense or anything (like "What am I going to do with my life?"), but what I should be doing right this second. I honestly have no idea and it is a very strange feeling. And I am probably not making any sense, but whatever.

Although, I do have a sudden hankering for some movie popcorn.

I've been cruising around this site that talks about how modern public schools completely stifle creativity and turn kids into mindless drones who only care about grades and don't care about learning, and it's gotten me thinking about stuff. I'm reading the comments and entries and thinking about the great teachers I've had in the past, and it turns out that the majority of them were male. Most (not all, but most) of my female teachers have pretty much exemplified the "schooly" kind of teaching that the website deplores and criticizes, like all of the "busy work" and not actually teaching us anything and not really engaging us in what we were doing. Most of the teachers I've had who have made a significant impact in my education were men. Most of the ones who challenged me and made learning interesting instead of just stupid were NOT women.

Now, of course I know that not all female teachers everywhere are like I just described; this has just been my personal experience. But it's still gotten me wondering why it turned out that way, especially since I'm just talking about middle and high school. All of my female elementary school teachers were awesome; the ones later on were mostly the ones who sucked. And it's also not to say that I didn't have female teachers in middle/high school who were great and that I never had male teachers who sucked. I just find it odd, is all, that when I think of the typical "drone" teacher that the website describes, I mostly picture my former female teachers, and one of my male teachers who STARTED OUT as awesome but gradually stopped being awesome and started being lazy and giving us busy work instead of actually teaching us.

I dunno. It's midnight and I'm rambling, haha. If I was less lazy tired I might try to make this into a more thoughtful post, but instead I'll just ask you what you guys think and about your own experiences with awesome teachers and crappy teachers.

I am just going to type whatever random crap pops into my head. Which is how I sometimes talk. Mostly with my mom. I'll talk about X, proceed onto topic Y, stay silent for a few minutes, and then suddenly jump in with some new information about topic X, or something tangentally related to it. Thinking out loud is a very bad habit of mine... I'll just randomly pipe up, "I have to pee", or "I wonder what's for dinner tonight", or "I think I forgot to ______".

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My next post shall be in limerick form! :D

(...you can tell I'm bored, right?)

Well...it's a little after midnight, and I am very bored. I should probably go to "sleep" or whatever you crazy kids call it these days, but I'm not tired at all. I just killed fifteen minutes adding tags over at jf_and_sd, which was kind of pointless but I felt like it. Now I have nothing to do again. *whistles*

Well, I suppose I could write more of the Peter/Mohinder fic. It's the last chapter, though, and I want to take some more time with this one, instead of finishing it all in one night, like I know I will if I start it again now. Besides, I don't really feel like it. This is kinda the Mega Chapter. I expect it's going to be rather long. Then it's the epilogue, which will be pretty short, and then it's done. *tear* I can't wait to see who picks my fic and what they come up with. A trailer would be hilarious.

Oh! I've also decided that my Project for the next year is a music video set to "Lollipop" by Mika. I've got this whole thing in my head for it. I'll have to start storyboarding once I get some supplies. Like paper.

My dad's supposed to be back Thursday (which I guess is today). You know what's awesome, though? He managed to get from New Jersey to North Dakota in one day. One. Day. So I guess Mohinder and Sylar's One Day Road Trip is possible after all.