How did I ever do this shit?

[tju_tju_tju_tju]

I'm looking back at my old fanfics in hopes of getting myself inspired to write something -- anything -- and I find myself wondering how the hell I ever wrote anything. How the hell did I manage to string all of these words together and form them into coherent stories with coherent plots and character development (well, most of the time, anyway)? How did I ever actually manage to finish anything? Where the hell did I ever get my ideas from?

And the novel I wrote in high school -- how the fuck was I able to FINISH it? How was I able to keep going and keep going with the plot and follow everything through? How in the world did I do that? I can understand the short stuff more because it's... well, short. But a whole book? A 200 page book? God damn. What the hell's happened to me? Where did my writing skills go? Am I just being lazy, or is it something deeper than that?

Comments

[cold-queen-5.livejournal.com]

I've done it. In high school all I ever wanted to do was write. Now...five years later...I barely do it at all. I don't understand it either.

[tju-tju-tju-tju.livejournal.com]

It's so damn frustrating, isn't it? :(

[mialicia.livejournal.com]

I'm am so with you on this. I'm in the middle of a novel right now and in the last few weeks all my motivation has just...gone! I don't know what happened with it!
What's wrong with us! lol

[tju-tju-tju-tju.livejournal.com]

I don't know! XD It's incredibly annoying and upsetting...

[sidonay.livejournal.com]

trust me. as you know, I went through that for nearly a whole year. now I seem to be making up for lost time and I can't stop (I mean, come on. me writing a novel? you and I both know that even five months ago this would have been something we'd laugh at). basically, i'm saying, you'll get it back. I promise. your muse will show up when you least expect it and suddenly you'll be able to write again.

[tju-tju-tju-tju.livejournal.com]

I certainly hope I get my mojo back. :/ This just feels like something deeper than simple writer's block, though; this feels like there's something terribly wrong...